I KEEP LEARNING............
The people that have helped me the most, are the ones who were honest with me, don't always agree with me, or cosign my bullshit. Not the ones that always agree with me, or let me stay on the pity pot. Yes, I get mad at them sometimes, at the time, but, I know they care, because they are risking our friendship to be honest with me, & to help me, not enable me. But then, I have an open mind, & I want to stay sober, & more, I want quality sobriety, I want recovery. I appreciate someone who helps me cut thru the old beliefs, the old behavior, the old everything. Recovery hurts sometimes. Sometimes I feel like I have nothing to stand on, when I'm cutting away at the old stuff. What is there left? Where am I going? There always is something to stand on, or as that saying goes, I am taught to fly. But it is uncomfortable for awhile cuz it's unfamiliar. I think when I'm uncomfortable, I'm changing, I'm not sure I'm s'pose to be comfortable, cuz then, I'm in the familiar. I appreciate the people who challenge my thinking, & my beliefs, & my behavior. My mind & heart are evermore open to challenges. I keep learning, & that's a beautiful thing.Labels: challenges, familiar, learning, recovery, unfamiliar
posted by sharonsjourney @ 8:52 AM
8 Comments:
Lovely post, Sharon.
Every day when I wake up I ask G-d to make me a ready student -- (something I learned from an AA circuit speaker.) Continuing to learn really IS a beautiful thing, and it's even better when I am open to it ;-)
Peace to you,
Scout
yes, I pray for the humility to stay teachable. pride kept me so ignorant. Thank you Sharon
I know what I found...when I kept cutting away at the old stuff...I found a wonderful woman...under all the drugs and alcohol. I believe you will too.
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goooooooooood morning, Sharon! :)
Of course you could never ever offend me, silly.
I haven't been spending much time visiting blogs because I have been busy filling out financial aid forms like crazy.
I haven't made it public yet because I honestly do not know what is happening for sure. But I am really really excited about the possibilities!
I fill you in on the details when I have a "yes" or "no" and "how much" and "what the heck is going on"
Everything is pretty uncertain about everything, know what I mean?
Ya, I am not sure I know what I mean either. :)
-- Your "evil conservative" friend.
Sharon, your URL is at the top of your blog...where it says HTTP...
I love the learning process in the program too, and the people who challenge me, in a love-hate-gratitude kinda way!!! You rock gurl friend!
love and HUGS
Selamat pagi, Sharon. As in Good Morning, Sharon.
Now I'm learning how to be a successful businessman online?
I'm also happy you're doing well. Keep on posting, my friend.
CANCEROUS GROWTH
I imagine AA to be a cancerous growth in our society. I'm a recovered alcoholic who has been sober for over 22 years. I've seen this "cult" virtually destroy people where they become these Bill & Bob zombies devoid of any emotion. I imagine most of the Steppers are not dealing with their core issues and become addicted to the "droning Bill & Bob heads" who pop up and expel meaningless diatribe from their mouths. Alcoholism is the only "disease" one doesn't recover from & one is continually confessing ones non - existent sins, which intensify the guilt and fear when one is not at a meeting (indoctrination session). I imagine AA meetings numb and shutdown the critical thinking section of ones brain. I know a guy who has been sober for over 30 years and I imagine him to be quite mad - he doesn't even know what he's feeling most of the time apart from feeling depressed. I imagine AA to be the road to hell and that it's anti - Christ and the Steppers sell their souls to the "cult", because they are too terrified to face their “demons” & recover their true selves. That "inner child" who is waiting to be freed is slowly pushed down until it disappears into oblivion. That "child" is God! "Unless you become like little children...." "The kingdom of God is within you!" I hear things like; "I need to do the Steps!" "I need more meetings!" "I had cancer or my wife died or I lost my job!" "But! Guess what! I didn't pick up a drink". They might as well say; "I fell of my chair but I didn’t pick up a drink”! "Meaningless”! Why? Because one is not expressing ones feelings! Ones process is all about feelings! How does one recover if one doesn’t feel ones pain, fear, & shame & understand that these feelings, especially if they are overwhelming; are feelings, from ones childhood. All AA does is suppress these feelings until one ends up a semi - depressed zombie like the lunatic who has been sober for over 30 years. Can you see how dangerous this "cult" is, Sharon? A madman, Bill Wilson, started it and if you want to end up like him, Sharon, keep going to meetings. The sure way to insanity is "Meetings!" "Meetings!" "Meetings!"
Peace Be With You
Micky
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