COMPLACENCY.......
I had to let a sponsee go, I don't like having to do that. I'll bend over backwards for them, but they have to do their part, they have to meet a few requirments, & she wasn't doing that, it has happened before with her, & I let it slide, but I felt this time I had to let her go, cuz it didn't seem like I was helping her.I myself am having a little diffiiculty in doing my assignments, I think I'm getting complacent. I have been there before, & it's a bitch to get out of. Any suggestions from anyone would be welcomed. I've been praying for God to show me His will, & give me the courage, & willingness to carry it out. My willingness, I think has been lacking. I've been pretty busy with other assignments too. Besides being an alcoholic, I also have ptsd, & ADD, & they, along with my alcohoism, are playing havoc with me. I just get tired sometimes, of something always hitting me in the face, & I have to figure out which one it is, & what to do about it. I need to keep working my steps with my sponsor, I know that, & do what I can at home by myself, & working with my sponsees, as well as talking to other alcoholics. I've had a hard go of it. Some devastating things have happened in my life, that set me back. I know I can't use that as an excuse, but it has set me back, in my willingness. Not just stuff happening to me, but to my friends too. But you know what? I am grateful today for the program, & the people in it, & my HP of course. What more could I ask for? It willl come, if I keep praying & keep my sobriety foremost in my heart. Happy Monday!
posted by sharonsjourney @ 12:44 PM
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hey! take a breath, take a break, shift your focus onto something else completely, just for a teeny little while. and then when you feel rested, things will take shape. sometimes all we need is a little distance and a different perspective. good luck girl!
Hi Sharron, yes I think what Shadow says is wise, it seems you are getting caught in the show maybe u should move back into the audience a little.
JMD is back with me, he phoned up last night and looks really ill this time, I think is liver is in a really bad shape and I think it was the first time I have ever seen him sober.
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Wow, I have been exactly where you are with the willingness. I was told to pray for the willingness. And if I wasn't willing to pray for the willingness then to pray for the willingness to pray for the willingness -- and on adnauseum.
But it worked......
Hope you are well.
Peace,
Scout
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Sorry you got Mickied. What a pain in the ass.
I have been in the place you are in too. It can be a dangerous place. Keep praying and sharing about it. Keep trying and you will get there. It really is the hard stuff about sobriety. That is why it is so important to build that solid foundation. Because you never know when these stretches are going to hit ya.
Stay close~ and have a great day!
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I am glad too Sharron, that JMD has decided to go again, he had a yellow tinge to him and looked really unwell, he is in and out of hospital all the time but it seems this time he has managed 9 days dry, Like it says you only have to go through it all once dont you.
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